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The online literary and arts magazine for students enrolled at Illinois Central College. 

Latest Issue: Volume I/Issue 2

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Want to submit your work for publication consideration? 

We are now accepting submissions for Volume II/Issue 1, which will be published in January 2023. 

All currently enrolled Illinois Central College students (including dual credit) are eligible to submit fiction, narrative nonfiction/personal essays, poetry, and visual artwork (drawings, paintings, photography, etc.) for consideration. 

Submissions will be accepted until December 1, 2022

For Submission Guidelines, go here. To submit your work go here



I Am a Flower

By Dinah Henry

 

I was right there for you in your garden.

You said every time I see you, you always smell like a flower.

That sweet smell of roses you like it on me.

You can't stay away from your grandma's garden, so I rebuilt it for you.

You said, “You didn't have to do that.”

I told you, “Why I did it, is because you kept looking at it like I wish grandma were here. She is here, just in a different place. I know you miss her and I bet she is missing you too. She will be there even if you can't see her. That is why I rebuilt it for you.”

You said, “You are a flower.”

Well, that is what I am, a flower.

 

About the Author
Hi, my name is Dinah Henry. Currently, I am in college to study creative writing because one day I want to become an author, but not just any author, one of the best-selling authors where not just my family, friends, whoever knows me, but everyone else know me as a good or great best-selling author.


The Little Things

By Rebekah Rademacher

I’ve learned to love the Little Things 

A flock of blackbirds scattering as I drive by A red leaf falling onto my windshield 

A breath of clean night air 

The Little Things often repeat 

A warm cup of coffee in my favorite mug 

A weathered spine of my oldest book 

A gentle lick from my pet 

The Little Things never last 

A friend’s warm hand in mine as we talk 

A crackling fire on a cold starry night 

A scent of Mom’s best cookies 

Maybe that is meant to be 

I learn to love and cherish those Little Things They repeat when I least expect it 

They fade away into nothing 

But they will always have a place in my heart and my mind

 

About the Author
Rebekah is a current freshman majoring in English and minoring in creative writing. Her current writing project is the fourth draft of a science fiction book that she hopes to publish one day. She enjoys hiking, especially in National Parks. She is an avid reader of science fiction and fantasy books. When she isn’t busy, she can be found playing video games, binge-watching sci-fi shows, or crocheting.


I Am Not Alone

By Nelcy Alfaro

The night is helplessness 
from the mountains to the sea. 
But I, the one who rocks you, 
I am not alone!

The sky is helplessness 
if the moon falls to the sea.
But I, the one who hugs you, 
I am not alone!

The world is helplessness 
and the flesh, in sadness, carries on. 
But I, the one who cuddles you,
I am not alone!

 

About the Author
Nelcy is a student at Illinois Central College.

Butterfly

By Nelcy Alfaro

 

Butterfly

Beautiful and white

Fly and fly 

Never get tired 

Turn here 

And turn there 

And she rests upon a flower

And she rests upon a flower.

  

About the Author
Nelcy is a student at Illinois Central College.

My Truth

By Carmeta Webster-Sims

I am from Kingston, Jamaica W.I. I am the 4th child and youngest girl of five kids (2 sisters, 2 brothers). In 1993 at the age of six, my mother brought us all to the US. In '99 it all changed for me because at the age of 12, my dad almost took my mom away from us. My dad ended up getting deported back to Jamaica for what he did to my mother and because I was a daddy's girl, it impacted me the most. After my dad was sent back, it really messed me up. It was never easy for me growing up after that because my mother and I always bumped heads. I felt like the black sheep of the family. I always felt as if I didn't belong, as if my mother didn’t want me or love me the way she loved my sisters and brothers. She would always make it harder for me than she did for my siblings. As I got older, I started to look for the love that I never felt from my mom and couldn't get from my dad. My mother and I had a very strained relationship, but when I told her that I was pregnant, everything changed drastically. I started dating men older than me and kept it from my mom and my family while sneaking around cutting classes, and that's how I ended up with my first baby. I dropped out of school four months before graduating but went back to school after I had my daughter, and that's when my life really started.

I am from homelessness. At the age of 17 I was pregnant with my son whom I had at 18, then a year later at 19 I had my baby girl. At that point in my life, I had already moved out of my mother’s home and was living alone as a single mom going to school, working, and struggling to make ends meet. As my kids were getting older, things started to get harder. In 2014, we eventually ended up staying in a shelter after I lost my apartment the first time. Then there was another bump in the road when someone stole my rent money, and I was evicted from my second apartment. As a mother, I made sure that my children were safe with a roof over their heads. I myself was sleeping in my car and bouncing from home to home living with people I never knew beforehand. During that time in my life, I was severely depressed, and my thoughts were very much suicidal at this point, and I felt that my kids would be better off without me. A year later, in 2015, I ended up in the hospital for a few days because I was thinking about doing the worst thing possible and that was leaving my kids without a mother. After my time in the hospital, I took my children and moved to Pennsylvania with my best friend where we ended up staying for a year and a half. Within that time, I met someone who I thought would treat me right, but instead turned around and became my abuser.

I am from a domestic violence relationship. In 2017, I packed up my kids and moved here to Peoria, Illinois, and from the day we made it here to stay with my partner at the time, it was crazy. She was someone that thought she was "god," that she was so much better than everyone else, when she was really just as bad. While in the relationship, I was been beaten with a 5th of vodka bottle that left me with scars on my face, head, and body. I was cut with a pocketknife, had a DVD player busted up on my back, had the tip of my nose bitten off, burnt with boiling hot water, spit on, and treated like dirt. It was the worst I've ever been through in my life. My kids were affected in a major way because they had to witness the abuse and cruelty that I had to endure in front of them. It broke my heart as a mother to listen to the verbal abuse toward my children and being scared of someone that is supposed to love you. Eventually, I left and stayed in the shelters out here, but because I was basically by myself out here, I kept going back to this person. I kept putting my children back in a position that I knew was wrong, but again we were new here and didn't know where else to go. After two years of dealing with the mental, physical, and verbal abuse, I was blessed with a call from my current residence, and by the next week, me and my kids were in our own safe haven. It took one last incident with my ex a few months later for me to realize that I didn't have to accept her abuse anymore, and that gave me the strength I needed to say enough was enough. Even though I left her alone, I was still nervous whenever I left my home to go to the store or anywhere else. It took therapy for myself and my kids to even begin to get through everything that happened to us; I mean, she almost took my life twice, and they witnessed it all. The worst feeling in the world was having my kids experience what they did and feeling like the worst parent because of what they had to go through.

I am from SURVIVAL. Getting over the abuse and all the obstacles in my life was the hardest thing to do, especially as a single parent raising two kids. There are plenty of times in my life when I've wanted to end it, when I wanted to give up and just say "fuck it," but my angels always saved me. Before my kids, I felt unwanted and didn't know my purpose in this world, but after I had my kids, I had a bigger outlook on life. They not only saved me, but they always gave me the love that made me whole again and strong enough to get through whatever came our way. As I got better and started living again, there was no more fear of bumping into my ex or worrying about looking over my shoulder. After being a victim, I rose up and remained the same person that I was and always have been before that part in my life. In July of 2020, I met my other half, my wife. We started dating at the end of August and got married a few weeks later after her birthday on September 22. People might read this and say, "Damn she didn't waste any time," but regardless of what anyone would think or want to say, it was the best decision of my life. I'm very proud to call her my wife. She has shown me nothing but love, respect, acceptance, and she loves my kids. We have been growing together for almost a year now, and I wouldn't trade her for the world. My kids love her, and they are also getting ready to take her last name.

I am happy. I have the greatest family in the world, and even though there are still days where we struggle, the bond that we share is unbreakable. To this day, I still have dreams of the abuse, and it still scares me that one day I might bump into my ex, but I push that thought to the back of my mind because I am stronger now in my faith and my strength. That was a part of my life that was not only horrible, and scary, but it was definitely a lesson learned. I'm a better mother than I was at those points in my life, my kids are much better, happier, and way more comfortable than they have ever been. I'm happily married to the greatest person in the world, next to my kids of course. I'm a full-time student, I was working, but I let my job go so I could focus on school. My goal is to open up my own center where I would be helping the less fortunate to the most fortunate, from kids to adults, anyone in need. My family is my biggest support system, and I do everything that I do for them. But my journey doesn't stop there because I want to make a positive difference in this world, because if I can make it and find peace, I want people to know that anything is possible.

 

 About the Author

My name is Carmeta Webster-Sims. I was born in Kingston, Jamaica W.I. My mother brought my siblings and I to the US in 1993 at the age of 6, where I grew up in Paterson, New Jersey. I'm a wife and a mother of two teenagers. I moved to Peoria, Illinois, in April of 2017, where I'm currently attending ICC for Psychology. I would be honored to tell my story in hopes that it will be a positive reinforcement for the next person whose experiencing or has experienced the things that I've been through. I am a survivor of Domestic Violence, my life struggles, while being a single mother, and I'm still standing strong and will continue to do so. My goal is to build a foundation that will allow me to help others of all ages, races, and status, because I want to make a difference, as well as showing my children that regardless of your struggles there's always a way to get through.

Now Is Our Hour

 By Samantha Bonk

Poets sing their songs

That have written history

For our American Country

As it developed,

Unfold,

Became the superpower

After trails took toll on our nation.

 

Yet forgotten they are

Because names and dates defeat them

In the classroom

But not today.

Today let me explain history

In the eyes of our poets.

 

It was April 18th of seventy-five,

When ‘pon midnight did ride

Our famous Paul Revere.

He rode through the streets

Trying to beat the Redcoats

Around the bend, calling to arms

Our American men![1]

 

See, Henry Wadsworth

Wrote of Paul Revere

And his poem persevered

Because without,

Revere would never appear

In our history books at all.

 

While there is a song

That is not too long,

You sing at each game,

Each inauguration

In our States.

This is the song

Of “the land of the free

And the home of the brave”[2]

Where the Star-Spangled Banner does wave.

This is our Anthem

Which came from the poem by

Mr. Scott Keys called

“Defense of Fort M’Henry”.

For without,

What would we sing?

 

And when independence was won,

Patriotism sprung

As Walt Whitman claims

“He hears America singing…

Each singing what belongs

To him or her and none else”[3]

For America is free.

 This a cause for celebration,

One we take for granted now

Because hotdogs and fireworks

Only last so long

And our country’s a powerhouse now

So freedom is something we need not gain

For the pain of oppression is forgotten today.

 

But then, that was not the case,

As slavery reigned

And brought just pain

And heartbreak for the white man’s gain,

Yet slaves are poets too,

Their life sheds truth on their abuse.

They scream

“the influence of slaveholding power,

Like a dark cloud of vengeance

does over them lore,

And from it a poison most deadly distills,

And freedom’s best lifeblood,

it stagnates and chills.”[4]

 

But as pain is brought forth

On paper, in words

Liberation does push

Towards the light

As South and North divide

While each poem revives

A feeling of hope

For our soldiers to fight

For freedom and rights.

As Whitman writes

“Drum Taps”

Explaining what the Civil War

Meant to those who

Tapped out lights

And as his poem grow

To the public eyes

More rise to fight.

 

And as our “poet fueled war”[5]

Came to a close

And Lincoln’s quill rose

Reconstruction imposed,

As equality is gained

Yet unsustained

As Jim Crow Laws and segregation arose

And will not close.

Still Ms. Walker spreads

A message of hope

For equality and peace

“For [her] People”[6] and our country.

 

While as Industrialization climbed,

Smog rised.

Dickinson writes

Banish Air From Air,

Which shared the importance of nature

Which then was impaired,

As cities grew

And the sun who

Once had shown

Is unknown to dweller’s eyes,

So this poem inspired reform

To once again feel

The warmth of the Sun.

 

Sun, which shone on

A new life for many

As immigrants climbed into ships

Inspired by our lady

Who on her base cries,

“Give me your tired, your poor,

your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,

The wretched refuse of your teeming shores.

Send these, the homeless, tempest tost to me,

I lift my lamp beside the golden door.”[7]

 

This poem, The New Colossus

Brought to us by Ms. Lazarus

Is the reason cities teemed

With laborers working hard,

Sweat streaming

As their feats are unnoticed by companies

But still, they have hope

Inspired by “the light beside the golden door.”

 

And in celebration Sandburg writes

Of our city,

The good and the bad of our

“Hog Butcher of the World,

Tool Maker, Stacker of Wheat,

Player with Railroads and the Nation’s Freight Handler;

Stormy, husky, brawling,

City of Big Shoulders”[8]

 

This poem brought overwhelming

Pride for our Chicago city

Just before World War I

As it grew to new heights

While our country turns all its might

To the growing war overseas,

Where the “Anthem for Doomed Youth”

Springs to our country

As it sings,

“Only the monstrous anger of the guns,

Only the stuttering rifles rapid rattle”[9]

Patters overseas.

 

And this Anthem pulls on our heartstrings

So, our money flings

To the military

And our neutrality swings to

Selling submarines,

 food,

weapons,

anything

to the Allied Powers overseas.

 

So when the draft hits,

And men are shipped across sea

They sing,

“Send the word,

Send the word over there,

That the Yanks are coming,

The Yanks are coming

The drums rum-tumming ev’rywhere.”[10]

And patriotism springs

As they sing their song,

And women rush to fill in jobs

In factories

For their country.

 

Yet when the war is won,

Europe is left in disarray

Completely dismayed

From the shower of firepower,

But America flowers

For now is our hour

Because America’s a Superpower.


[1]From Longfellow, H. W. (1860). Paul Revere's Ride.

[2] From Keys, F. S. (1814). Defense of Fort M'Henry.

 [3] From Whitman, W. (1860). I Hear America Singing.

 [4] From L.L. (1844). A family escaping from slavery.

[5] Wilson, E. (2012, November 13). A "Poetry-Fueled War" (Interview by R. Graham). Poetry Foundation. https://www.poetryfoundation.org/articles/69877/a-poetry-fueled-war

 [6] This poem was originally named “For My People” by Maraget Walker explaining the hardships African Americans faced during this time period.

[7] Lazarus, E. (1883). The New Colossus.

[8] Sandburg, C. (1914). Chicago.

[9] Owen, W. (1920). Anthem for Doomed Youth.

[10] Send the Word Over There [Video]. (n.d.). YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6hRDS3LvQQ

 

About the Author
Samantha Bonk is a senior at Metamora Township High School enrolled in ICC dual credit courses. Apart from writing poetry, she enjoys playing her double bass and classical guitar. Sammy is fond of traversing across the country and hopes to visit all fifty states. 

 

 

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